you mean you want to have regrets, nanne?

Ouch.

Ouchouchouchouch.

Regrets. I try not to go there these days, too many to count, too few to write. I wish I could list them, but then again, I might bore everyone. Good heavens, do I have regrets.

I used to think that I regretted Judo, or my choosing it, but I can see why. Every person needs to make this BIG mistake. But I guess my way of running away was cowardly. Really horridly cowardly. If I'd made a mistake, I should have stuck with it and made it better with what I had.

Instead, I ran. I ran away from it.

Escapology. Story of my life.

There's a HUGE difference between starting at Sec 1 and starting at Sec 2. Your friends stare at you like you're a freak. You become overly proud and think you lord it over your Sec 1s. You aren't exactly fitting in. You're becoming more and more disgusting every day. Exhibit A. Anne Ng, aka Nanne. Has all four symptoms.

I don't like how I'm handling GB. I love it, yes I do. And I'm accepted, more or less. But, as the great PAS says, to every man who breaks the thing he loves most, let this be heard. He broke her like a vase, and stared quizzically at the pieces. I shouldn't have gone from Judo, even if the only reason why I stayed is so I could stick to a choice I'd made.

*smacks head against table multiple times*

Stupid nanne. If only you had a bit more freakin' courage.

I wish I was nicer to my family. I'm lousy, really lousy to them. I have a lousy temper, lousy incessant chatter, lousy with lousiness. I want to sit with them and WATCH A MOVIE or GO TO THE BEACH or DO A ROMP. Anything but me sitting here and sewing/threadingRapunzel'swig.

I wish I could be better at acting bimbotic. I'm failing miserably. Cue disgusting crying noises. Oh crud.

/I may not make it through the night, but I won't go home without yoooooou./

I really like that song.

I pretend I don't have them, Ash dear.