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This blog was opened by Anne Ng to accomodate her mind's silly musings and her daily rantings.Do enjoy your stay here, and don't take what's not yours! tagboard
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This is a disclaimer: THE FOLLOWING POST IS NOT A POEM I was thinking today, well in my usual anne self, why should i be so lucky to be in a safe country with a stable government, in a good school, not daily frought with thoughts of who in my family will be killed next by some mad men rampaging around the country, with family all safe, no sickness except for that ugly sore throat that's sapping my voice, and friends all around me Wow, philo is getting to me...i decided to draw up a new, drabblish, yet not drabblish fanfic, of life if i was in another country. like not in a school, not in a safe place, not have a good and square healthy three meals a day thing... i might transplant some of you lucky or unlucky friends into it too. i'll use pseudo names of course. im obviously moira, but i need all friends who i'll probably use in my story, namely the baboonz and melissa plus a few add ons i'll think of. i might not put this plan into action, it's just an idea floating around in the air at the moment...maybe i'll use my other balletroxmylife.blogspot.com blog to post it... still thinking...i need a good blogskin... well i'll let the idea float around more and i just might write it :) well tell me what you think...oh yeah, for friends im using, i'll try to stick to exactly how you are normally towards me and all... and tell e what war-torn country i should write to be in... haha thanks dears moira rose out last night only last night i dreamt of heaven and what eternal peace felt like the roads paved with gold glimmered with a crystal clear sea next to it and jewelled walls sparkling with ebony gates opening just for me i dreamt of grassy fields of childhood the sun beating gently on my back the wind making my hair fly the sense that this is where i belong while i felt the happiness of reaching my final goal i seemed to remember a struggle a torturous journey to home i remembered how tears feel like on my face how anger cuts you up inside how hatred numbs your senses how disappointment sinks in my stomach yet i can still smile still laugh in that safe haven of home i woke up when it was still black outside and felt reality wash over me but i thank God for that taste of heaven of what he gave to me that night for i'm still a pilgrim wayward and swayed by temptation but with this hope in my heart i'm plugging along life's way i wonder what today brings... A/N: this is based on an actual dream i had a while ago. i dreamt of a tiny little corner of heaven, like a teensy bit of happiness. well i woke up and felt like saying, "darn, if only that could last longer..." and i would have said it if i didn't have my sis next to me sleeping. then i kinda pondered on it for a while and wondered if this was a foreshadowing of what was to come...hmmm...wonder if i'll sight the city soon, but still hoping, still praying... moira rose out Crossroads I'm standing at a crossroad a convergence of two split roads they'll never meet again they'll just keep on growing further and further away I'm making a choice, turn left or turn right and I'm wondering, if all I wanted was more time I'm wishing for the world to stand still just give me a bit more time a bit, just a bit so I can stay here in limbo a bit longer I know this will change my life to pick between living a life with friends I've made this year or a passion I've had for more years than I can remember, which one? The year will come to an end sooner or later and the decision will be upon me to choose which way I'll go. And suddenly, all the effort I've put in, all the friends I've made, all the dreams I've had, are tipping the scales this way and that. And all of that, seems to boil down to, just three words, judo or ballet? A/N: Sorry for the emo-ing, but what rebecca said to me during judo camp really stuck. when i told her that i'd given up ballet, something i've been doing for 9 years already, just to start judo, she said, "it's a wonder what people give up for judo". I choked up then. It struck me that, i HAD given p a hell of a lot for judo, and it's not like im getting anywhere with it. i'm NOT good, contrary to popular belief. AND SO THERE! so i'm still stuck. still choosing, and the balance tips back and forth. hopefully, it will become steady when the time comes to choose moira rose out Post-Holiday Blues One last golden day of holidays long gone To stay in the present is my wish yet it's hopelessly unattainable As surely as the sun sets today I will leave this happy haven the golden will seep through into blackness leaving me grasping for wisps of memories long gone Where is my yesterday? buried in friends and family defined by going abroad and discovering new places shaped by laughter and love Where is my tomorrow? buried in textbooks and worksheets defined by MYAs and EOYs shaped by expectations and meeting them I'm hopelessly living in a present with time ticking away deciding if I should to grasp what is yesterday's to keep or to hope that what tomorrow brings never comes A/N: sorry i haven't been posting but i've been writing like a lunatic on fanfic for a while and haven't got the time. the poem featured above is on going back to school and me being my ornery self, hate it HATE IT. i envy that kimberley pah, gets to go to CANADA, skip the EOYs, not fair... ahh but i managed to finish lots of fanfics (4 chappies of What kind of human are you?, 2 oneshots and 1 chappie of So Near Yet so far) wootz^^ so i'm okay... i guess... moira rose out okay, this is a final fantasy 7 inspired poem, sorry but it has spoilers, some of it at least. clang my sword hits yours causing sparks to dance you taught me all i know now and i'm using it to kill you. why? why did you leave? you made it so difficult for me i have to kill you lest get killed myself. dying do i fear it? fear it enough to kill my best mentor? maybe so maybe no we whirl round and round parrying blows like we used to do during training where you'd call out to me what to do what happened to those happy times? what happened to us? but i can't kill you in some strange way i love you like you're my father i can't let you die knowing it was because of me. i drop my sword as the ultimate sign of surrender but i did it just as you lunged forward the sword of your family's honour slides into me. strangely, i don't feel much pain i just feel at peace even when i hear your cry of anguish as my blood falls on your hands. A/N: i don't expect that many of you know the story behind this, but i can't tell you, lest ispoil your fun if you choose to buy this game. in truth, to be ABSOLUTELY melodramatic, i nearly cried after Genesis commited suicide. i mean, i kinda indirectly killed him. and he was my favourite character. once i switched to Tseng as my fav character, he gets wounded! i'm a walking curse... anyways, i can't seem to kill Angeal, but i wrote this cos i felt it's such an injustice on him to die at my hand, since he was my teacher. so i rewrote that bit as a poem. hope you liked it dedicated to all final fantasy fans of crisis core or anything else. oh btw, i think Sephiroth looks pretty handsome, even though he has bad dress sense, haha moira rose out QUIZ!!!! taken off someone's blog, some eugene guy i think, apparently ashie/ah gong likes him... okAAAAAyyy 1. Do you like your present school? Oh yeah, as in i've spent like half my life wanting to come to RGSS so i think it's a fantastic school 2. What do you want the most right now? Me? I want to immigrate to America 3. Who is the closest person to you in you school? Melissa Tham and Lee Zi Xin and Nicolette Lee (fellow raju-ka) 4. Do you hate your friends sometimes? Yah, sometimes, when they pester me or when i get pissed, but i always stop after about ten minutes so no harm done 5. Are you afraid of death? No, it's a way of going to God faster... 6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain? Well, there's always something good at the end of a struggle, so i try to keep my eye on that. 7. What is your goal this year? become better at judo, do well in FPS, get to Australia etc. 8. Do you believe in eternal love? Well, let's just say that, it happens, but maybe not to me 9. Have you ever broken someone's heart that he/she wanted to commit suicide? wow wow, i don't think anyone's ever liked me enough to commit suicide if i broke their heart... 10. What do you enjoy doing the most? POETRY and READING LITERATURE!!!!(major lit-freak warning) 11. Have you ever done anything for your admirer? WHAT???!!! like i said, i don't think anyone's liked me enough to be my admirer... 12. What feeling do you hate the most? Hate, Pain, Hopelessness, Inferiority, you get the idea 13. Do you cherish every single friendship that you have? Yeah, as long as my friends cherish them too!!! 14. Who would you probably spend the rest of your life with? wow, uhh, maybe some guy i'll meet sooner or later, but as i said before, probably no one i know now, no one likes me that much now 15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? Safety for my family, staying together as a family 16. Do you find life meaningless? Well, i don't because i inject meaning into my life!!! 17. Who do you love the most? the most? God of course! then my parents, my sister, my family and a secret someone you shouldn't know about... 18. How handsome/pretty do you think you are? Not pretty at all... 19. Who do you talk to the most in school? Huijun, Nicolette, Nurul during judo... 20. What did you live for? My family and friends and the hope that things will turn out better Now on to my friends. I have to name 20 people in random order 1. Lim Rei 2. Lee Zi Xin 3. Benjamin Wong 4. Ho Wern 5. Jacqueline Khor 6. Nathaniel Ng 7. Chan Kai Yan 8. Melissa Tham 9. Amanda Choo 10. Ashlynna Ng 11. Ze Fan (cos i saw him today at training) 12. Nicolette Lee 13. Nurul Adhana 14. Jodie Loo 15. James Lek (still can't believe he's in tennis...) 16. Huang Huijun 17. Heidi Gay (no relationship with Colin but...) 18. Colin Gay (it just makes sense to put this under Heidi) 19. Keith Loh 20. Lee Shi Hui How did you meet #4? [Wern] last year, uhh i think rei introduced him to the baboons...yah at that time he'd just come back from america and i was frankly, dead jealous What would you do if you never met #1? I wouldn't love English the way I do now, and I would never have joined Baboonz United, the coolest gang of boys and girls. What if #9 and #20 dated? [Amanda Choo, Lee Shi Hui] okay the last time i checked, these two weren't lesbian okay? Will #6 and #17 date? [Nathaniel, Heidi] well uhhh...no way cos heidi's in sec 4 and nat's in sec 1 but hey, love is strange so maybe, maybe so... Describe #3. [Benjamin Wong] wow to sum it up, egoistic but he's actually okay i guess, and a lot shorter than me haha...and he irritates me with too many smses but yah, a good friend of mine indeed... Describe #7 [Chan Kai Yan] this one is good, he has YX chromosomes, prone to take of his shoe and chase you around, screams like an auntie (sorry but it's kinda true), runs like an auntie (sorry again but its true) and has a weird way with the broomstick, oh yah he also loves his grandma a lot... Do you know any of #12 family members? [Nicolette] nope, but i've seen them pick her up every now and then... What would you do if #18 confesses to you that he likes you? [Colin] ummm... i dunno, i think i'd find it strange cos Colin is, yunno, a very strange nerd, i think he's from a strange breed of human beings... i think i'd probably throw him with an ippon seoinage and then run off. What language does #15 speak? [James] don't really know, normally english i guess How old is #16? [Huang Huijun] soon to be 13 i think, im slightly older When was the last time you spoke to #13? [Nurul] today at training, i was laughing at her and she at me... Who is #2's fav. band/singer? [Zi Xin] she doesn't like music much so no one Would you ever date #4? [Wern] uhhh contrary to popular belief, no i don't like him. But i'm fine with going out with him as long as its a baboon outing...cos he's not bad company Would you date #1? [Rei] NO WAY!!! i'm not lesbian and neither is she... Is #19 single? [Keith] as far as i know, yup What is #10 last name? [Ashlynna] Ng? duh... Would you ever be in a relationship with #11? [Ze Fan] NO WAY MAN!!! as in friends yes, romantic, NOOOOO!!! oh seriously... School of #3? [Benjamin Wong] RI Where does #6 live? [Nathaniel Ng] ummm some condo near villa verde What is your favourite thing about #5? [Jacqueline Khor] the way she looks when she gets pissed at me and huijun calling her jacjac/ digressing during an FPS meet up Have you ever seen #2 naked? [Lee Zi Xin] nope...even though she's come over for a sleepover once and bathed in my toilet but no, i haven't, i'm not a pervert yunno... okay...officially the strangest 2 quizzes EVER but fun to do moira out Yesterday, or what seemed like yesterday, the day everything went black. the winds flooded my ears with noise the cold bit at my bones the cyclone grew at a monstrous pace. its mouth swallowed my home my family my happiness. then it left, like it hadn't torn away everything i needed to survive, without a backward glance. Today, I've been left in this barren land, strewn with memories of the past. the old swing i used to play on, i can almost hear my laughter, as daddy pushed me higher and higher. the tree i used to climb, i can almost hear mummy screaming at me to come down even when i pretend i can't hear, even though the tree itself has been torn up by the roots. i wish i could go back to yesterday, hold all the things i love close to my heart, and let myself die with them. at least then, i wouldn't have to deal with an uncertain tomorrow. A/N: okay so this came out quite fine, as in, even though i kinda took my sis' idea from her poem on the tsunami, but i changed perspective, and used the cyclone instead. sniffsniff, God bless the survivors moira out ROSES (taken off rei's blog) white, for innocence, humility, purity the rose for young girls with beautiful smiles with laughter like the tinkling of silver wind-chimes yellow, of platonic love between friends the rose for the brightness of childhood days Coral, for enthusiasm and desire the rose for adolescent years teetering on adulthood Pink, for gentle love and friendship the rose for young hearts bound with friendship and love Red, for love, courage and respect the rose for romance and marriage a promise of love forever Purple, for protection and a parent's love the rose for mothers protecting children from the outside world Blue, for mystery and reaching unattainable goals, the rose for triumph and achievement after toil and work for endless days Black, for death and eventual rebirth the rose for mourners and grievers to give hope that the dead will rise once more A/N: a bit off i know but hey there's a whole wiki on ROSES and what they mean so i just sailed through and wrote something. haha moira out A is for _______ 1) 4 LETTER WORD: Away/Afro/Army 2) BOY NAME: Antony/Andrew/Angelo 3) GIRL NAME: Anne!!!/Andrea/Amanda/Angelina/Abigail 4) OCCUPATION: Army Commando?/Animal Doctor (vet) 5) A COLOR: Army Green (eww)/ Apple Red (is that a colour?) 6) SOMETHING YOU WEAR: Ankle Socks (haha) 7) BEVERAGE: Ale?/sports-Ade/gator-Ade 8) FOOD: Aglio de Olio/Apples!!!/ 9) SOMETHING FOUND IN A BATHROOM: Aerosols? 10) A PLACE: AMERICA!!!! 11) REASON FOR BEING LATE: Armadillo fell on your head and you were hospitalised? (haha) 12) SOMETHING YOU SHOUT: Argh! haha, just a little something off nurul's bloggie!!! Who am I? who am i? a girl, lost in a faceless crowd pushing towards a goal i can't really see who am i? an adolescent, trying, trying to find an identity amongst the expectations piled upon me who am i? a family member, trying her best to be obedient, loving, looking for care and concern, in a warm embrace who am i? a friend, who strives to be there for others even when, they aren't there for me who am i? a judoka, who isn't really good, that no one really likes, just the one everyone forgets who am i? a Catholic, groping her way in the world, straying away from God's path a lost sheep, prone to danger and temptation so many roles to play, so many responsibilities to remember, yet i know, i may be just one person in the world, but to one person, i may mean the world A/N: okayokay that last line was a bit cheesy but hey, i took it off nurul's blog, go and tell HER about it... haha nurul moira out |