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So she said what's the problem, baby?.what's the problem, I don't know well maybe, I'm in love love. makes me wanna turn around and face it but I don't know nothin' 'bout love, woah~ |
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gotten from winnie's blog...luvya dear (platonically of course!) i'm taking it that she tagged me, and will go and tag some unlucky people...MUAHAHA Guidelines (as stated): A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. B) Tag eight people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people. Okay...question time 1) Why do you like popcorn? Because, it's yummy? and it always comes with a movie! =] 2) What do you do before bedtime? Pack Bag Scream about stuff not being done (if any) Fret about the stuff not being done (if already past the above) Watch something nice on youtube/write something/watch a tv show with me mum and sis Chat with my sis Read BOOKS!!! 3) What will your dream wedding be? In the hypothetical (as Miss Tan would put it =]) situation that I do get married, I hope it will have the following: - God around me - Family (ALL of them) - Besties: Baboonz, Zi Xin, Mel!, Nikki, Winnie (I'm not writing this just cos I got this from you dear, rest assured) etc. - Nice music! (this is a must) - where I can and will wear jeans and a t-shirt and NO HEELS to get married - where I'm free to have as many or as few people as I want - In America? In Disneyland maybe. I saw a bride in Disneyland and she was like, 20? super young looking! 4) What is the city of your dreams and why? Duhh...everyone knows this. California? Because the people there are super nice and happy and they live near DISNEYLAND, where everyone and anyone can and will be happy! (I sound like I'm trying to brainwash people =]) 5) Are you an introvert or an extrovert? this is a dumb question aye? anyways, you should know right? So REPLACE! *5) What character in any fiction do you think you resemble most? Apparantly, I took this test about which FF7 character I was closest to, and it turned out to be Yuffie Kisagari! Well, for you guys who don't know who she is, she's a ninja and she uses a shuriken as her main weapon, cool thing, but a bit bulky (if you don't know what shuriken means, think maplestory throwing stars enlarged till its about half your size). I think it's quite a good one too, cos she's hotheaded and tries to be friendly and ends up making a fool of herself :) 6) Which is more blessed, to love or to be loved? To me, to love. Cos now, thinking about it, I'm not so sure if being loved while you wallow in your own sorrows counts as happiness... 7) Do you trust easily? Depends on who. I trust my family and my friends but I can't really trust things and people I don't know. 8) What person, dead or alive, is your model? Mother Theresa, cos she's so selfless and kind and somehow immortal in everyone's heart even though she's dead. I think I'd like to imprint the world like that. 9) Has anything made you feel unhappy these days? Oh lots of things, I'll list some: - PTs - Chinese - French - the fact that FF7 isn't real - the fact that one of my fanfics got flamed on the same day someone added it as a favourite story... - etc... 10) When's the last time you had fun? Today, when I was watching donyelle and benji from So You Think You Can Dance season ? and thoroughly enjoying myself. 11) Being tagged=fun? Maybe, I guess... 12) What are your favourite sports? runningdancing(isthatasport)swimmingnetballcaptain'sballjudo...all the things that are essential for me not to be fat, though I'm well on the way... 13) Who are currently the people most important to you? GOD! I can't put anyone else when he's here on the list... 14) What kind of person did you get the meme from? WINNIE! she's so...i can't say how nice she is cos nice is too cliche but you should meet her yourself, she's a real dear... 15) Single and rich? Or Married and Poor? Married, as long as someone wants to marry me (took your answer winnie dear!) 16) How many children do you want? SKIP! *16) What is your current "addiction"? FANFIC! oh my, writing and reading, but I toned it down for the term... 17) What's better, giving or receiving? GIVING! duh... 18) If you fall in love with two people at the same time, who would you pick? Depends on who they are! Duh... 19) What would you do if you (or if you're a boy, your girlfriend) got pregnant? WHAT?! umm, dood, what kind of question is that? In the hypothetical (Miss Tan again) situation that that happens, I will keep it I guess...cos it's against the Bible to undergo abortion. Read Don't Think Twice for a cynical view of this question... 20) What are you waiting for currently? Oh, umm... the day I drop Chinese? the day I can get rid of the addiction to FF7 and fanfic and the day I immigrate to America. Tagged: 1) Ashlynna 2) Benjamin 3) Alch 4) Nadia 5) Charmaine 6) Melissa from Catechism 7) Cheese 8) Kimberly, the one that just came back from Canada and America coughwhichcoughicoughwantedcoughtocoughgocoughto... haha moira out AHHH... DISCLAIMER: MANIA ALERT! if you have no idea what i'm talking about, to quote our dear deepa, "idc", unquote. okay, so today i was wondering if i should change my blogskin to a FF7 one. So after going to look, I found out that there was only 1 stupid Reno one. Dang, I thought he was more popular than that. Anyways, so when I tried it out, it didn't work cos blogger was being cranky. Dumb site. Then I said, nevermind, and decided to do a Vincent Valentine one instead. Then it didn't work either. Then I gave up on it, blogger, and changing my silly blogskin. And today, I was hoping that someone could co write with me for my new idea for a Turk-centric fic. Still waiting for someone but I only just put it up... In other news, I have done my History PT. I HAVE DONE MY HISTORY PT. sorry, i can't believe it so i need to repeat a few times... and i'm not going for french tomolo cos i have swim carn, hope Mme Pang doesn't get mad at me... yah, and I got pissed today at coughsomecoughpeoplecough cos I was stressed and in my stressed way, i started a nice chain of stress-induced swearing. Only to be calmed down by Huijun during drama. It was so farny cos we were acting out that we were using a trombone to bash people on the head, and no one knew what we were doing (improvisational theatre). Sighz, i guess life is fine and we're still plugging along... BUT STILL, IF YOU SAY ANYTHING PERTAINING TO PTS AS OF NOW, I WILL STILL BLOW YOUR BRAINS OUT! cos im still stressed though i only have my dormant lit pt to finish. OFF TO HOMEWORK!!! moira out Thoughts from Heaven I look downwards, just to see you clawing at yourself struggling with the emotions I'm too familiar with. I knew it sounded fake when I said we could be together forever but I never did think you'd take it word for word. But in my heart I knew, when I stood to take that bullet, that though my promise to you was everything I had to keep loyal to what I had to do. This was the way it ended The way we knew it would Are you still in denial? Because I am still. Forgive me, I still love you, even when we are cursed to hate beyond the grave, and love in Death's bittersweet embrace. A/N: this is the second part to the poem posted before this. A continuation from a different place, a different time, a different person ... moira out Damn you Can you hear me? Screaming in the murky depths of my heart Wishing you were here, to bear the load with me. We knew that our lives were in peril that death was around the corner, and you said, you'd live for me, and made me believe that it was true. I believed you, did you know? I wished, hoped upon hope that what you said could be true that through that mask, the smile was genuine. But I waited for something that wasn't going to come, You didn't think of me again but maybe I'm flattering myself by saying you ever did. But you went and got yourself killed so much for everyone's perfect hero so much for your fake smiles so much for your empty promises of love. I wish I could have you back with me just for a minute, maybe two whether to slap you for leaving or to embrace you for coming back. But I know that's impossible, and I'm not wasting time on you So, here at your gravestone, I'm telling you, I'm through. A/N: I must say, this one came out weird and all, but I had to write it for a jumpstart to my next chapter for SNYSF. Anyway, I hoped this came out well, even when it sounds all angsty and weird. Pray for all those who are like this, who may be like this, or bordering on being like this. Pray for the sick and oppressed, the poor and the lame, the blind and the deaf, cos they aren't as lucky as we are. moira out Okay for the record my fanficing randomness is not coming to an end, with which i am quite pissed at... this sucks you know i hate the fact at anytime, my mind whizzes with what i'll write next, what's going to happen in my next story and it rules my life. i can't believe i let myself go like that... well, for huijun's[on her request, mamma mia(she's behind me...)] pleasure, i'll write another obsession piece, just on this thing cos i need NEED to get this off my mind sigh... Obsession When was it, that suddenly my life can't be separated from black pixels on a white computer screen? When was it, that visiting that same website, just to read the next chapter of some story i didn't even think was good? When was it, that my mind can't be separated from pairings and characters which can't even come out of the 2 dimensional world? i hate it wish to get rid of this silly obsession, but i keep going back to those deadly drugs... A/N: This is TRUE okay? as in, i wish upon wish that I could get away from it all. my life is run by stories and reviews and oh darn, i can't think without my mind swooping in on the next thing i'll write...sighz...at least my english improves... moira out the beauty of unknowns You don't know what I feel I don't know what you feel and we're pretending like we're happy when we're not. As if, we could ever be happy, while we pine away for the one we love who will never know anyway. We're clinging onto each other not because we love each other, but because we aren't loved by the one that truly matters. We are united in our loss but of course, we don't even know what the other is thinking. But what's that saying? 'ignorance is bliss' what we don't know, can't hurt us, right? Got this one off Melissa Yeo's blog... MUSIC MEME: 1. Put your music player on all your music, then shuffle .2. Press forward for each question. 3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING! 1. HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY? Anything but Ordinary --- Avril Lavigne ummm, I feel out of the ordinary today? Weird I know, but I'm feeling random today!!! (or why would I be doing this?) I feel daring today, I'm going to the extremes...that's what the song is... 2. WILL YOU GET FAR IN LIFE? I want it that Way --- Backstreet Boys Umm, how to put this? I want it to be as far as possible? What way? I don't know... :( 3. HOW DO YOUR FRIENDS SEE YOU? Just the Girl --- The Click FIve I'm appropriate? And I'm violent! Just the girl everyone's looking for? Nah, that sounds too ego :) 4. WILL YOU GET MARRIED? Suddenly I See --- KT Tunstall What?! Well, maybe I think I'll see that I don't need men in my life!!! Except for friends? Well, I don't know... I haven't found anyone yet so this is iffy... 5. WHAT IS YOUR BEST FRIEND'S THEME SONG? Superman, It's not easy to be Me --- Five for Fighting For Zi Xin, she's got a lot of pressure so its true that I might not understand what she is going through. For Mel, she also has pressure, plus she wishes she's in gymnastics though she didn't get in, and well, she's a dreamer... Not easy to be any of them... 6. WHAT IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE? About You Now --- Sugababes Umm, I have lots of regrets, and I wish yesterday could come back, I guess that's my life, though I wish I could have used Welcome to My Life by Simple Plan for this. 7. WHAT WAS HIGH SCHOOL LIKE? Ultimate --- Lindsay Lohan With trusted friends? and ummm, broken love affairs? that sounds weird. And with one of your friends becoming your boyfriend, so cliche man! I hate cliches... 8. HOW CAN YOU GET AHEAD IN LIFE? [Now they give me this...] Welcome to My Life --- Simple Plan By bottling your emo-ness and feelings inside of you and stab everyone in the back? hit below the belt? that sounds like the world today. 9. WHAT IS THE BEST THING ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS? No One --- Alicia Keys They, umm, stick by me? With no one between us? And we have nothing in between us, like secrets or anything? 10. WHAT IS IN STORE FOR THIS WEEKEND? Ironic --- Alanis Morisette well, weekends are supposed to be fun and relaxing so its ironic that I'm piled high with homework and PTs... 11. TO DESCRIBE YOUR GRANDPARENTS? 1985 --- Bowling for Soup They are behind in times?! well, while it sounds right, they're very nice and love me lots, so I don't think they're a 'burden' the way grandparents are normally portrayed. And they have fantastic stories about their lives... 12. HOW IS YOUR LIFE GOING? Top Of the World --- The Carpenters fantastic, and I'm pretty happy and everything looks wonderful. I'm trying to be optimistic... 13. WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? Perhaps Love --- Goong OST WHAT?! I guess it means like, everything is iffy? I don't think is bad to have, just that no one will understand the Korean... 14. HOW DOES THE WORLD SEE YOU? Bye Bye --- Mariah Carey Everyone will miss me when I'm gone? That they won't say bye to me? Sounds so poetic... But if I do die tomorrow, I'm not sure whether there will be many people who will cry for me, at least I wish I won't bring anyone sadness when I die... 15. WILL YOU HAVE A HAPPY LIFE? A Whole New World --- Aladdin and Jasmine from Aladdin I will discover many beautiful places? sounds happy to me! 16. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS REALLY THINK OF YOU? Lean On Me --- ??? I don't know... They can lean on me when they're not strong, because I'm a good friend, hope this is true...I wish people could trust me with their secrets and like I'm the one they'll come to when they need someone to listen... 17. DO PEOPLE SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU? Hosanna --- Hillsong This is the wrong song for the wrong question...but the song says no. And that I should only have eyes for God and Jesus, sounds right to me!!! 18. HOW CAN I MAKE MYSELF HAPPY? Xi Shui Chang Liu --- Sing Singapore 1 With my friends? Making them happy and keeping friendships till we're old? Sounds like a nice idea... I wonder how Zi Xin will look when she's old...haha :) 19. WHAT SHOULD YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE? What Makes a Man --- Westlife Let people walk away from me? Live my life as some weird sop story? sounds dumb... Or is it to take chances as they come and cling on forever, sounds better :) and be optimistic and try to be the best person I can... and get over past set backs... 20. WILL YOU EVER HAVE CHILDREN? The Sweet Escape --- Gwen Stefani Ft. Akon They will be my sweet escape, help me live my life again...hmmm, not that bad but not thinking about this now... 21. What song would you strip to? I SKIP THIS ONE... 22. IF A MAN IN A VAN OFFERED YOU CANDY, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? When You're Gone --- Avril Lavigne Reminisce on the last time I had candy with someone that's gone, sounds in character with me, poetic :) 23. WHAT DOES YOUR MUM THINK OF YOU? Chasing Cars --- Snow Patrol We have lots in common, but she gives me space to do things on my own, but we can rely on each other for support! Yay, love my mum! 24. WHAT IS YOUR DEEP DARK SECRET? Help Me See --- Jana Alayra That my Lord helps me see his Love for me? But I tell that to the world! Maybe that I'm fallible and give in to temptation and sometimes I need him to remind me during Sunday Mass not to sleep and to listen to him... 25. WHAT IS YOUR MORTAL ENEMY'S THEME SONG? My Happy Ending --- Avril Lavigne She will wreck my happy ending...NOT IF I HAVE A SAY IN IT, AND I CAN THROW HER :) judo can come in useful in these cases... 26. WHAT'S YOUR PERSONALITY LIKE? Bleeding Love --- Leona Lewis I will hold on to the things I love, even if people think I'm crazy and I hurt myself in the process... But I don't care... sounds emo and poetic but sounds like me...I love this song... 27. WHAT SONG WILL BE PLAYED AT YOUR WEDDING? Ni...Wo Shi Sha Gua --- Goong OST that we are both silly people and that we can make loads of mistakes but must forgive and forget? Not the best... I'm differing here, I'm gonna look for something that is actually nice to end off... found it! When You Say Nothing At All --- Ronan Keating That we can communicate without speaking, we have an understanding that runs between us that we don't need words, sounds so mushy but I hope for this... FANTASTIC, ALL DONE!!! loved doing this, its so fun!!! wootz^^ moira out Unseen Tears and Unheard Pondering When you turn and walk away, did you even stop to think of the tears falling because of you? I knew from the start it was hopeless to try but I just had to reach out to you even when you just hit me away. Did I mean so little to you, That you walk away, with no regrets or remorse for the torment you've brought? I love you and you scorn me it seems so simple writing it down, in reality, I can't seem to admit it. But as I watch you walk away through eyes obscured by tears, I know in my heart, that at least, I've learned that, To hate and be loved is complicated, but to love and be hated, is painfully simple. A/N: to my readers, please please don't think I'm writing this because either I have experience, or I feel this way. NO. I do NOT have experience and I am NOT feeling this way. I wrote this for all those people who love and aren't loved in return. Theirs is a sad plight, so don't come and feel sorry for me, since I haven't even felt it before. Writing this was also a process I do before I take on a fanfiction, so at the moment, you should know what I'm planning :) go figure moira out No sense in loving I'm searching for a soul of someone long broken what's the point? I'm hunting for a human in someone who has long stopped being one what's the point? I'm digging for a heart in someone whose heart has been iced over what's the point? I'm picking up the shards getting my hands bloodied and stained for nothing what's the point? I'm trying to show someone I can do it but to someone who just scoffs and ignores me what's the point? I'm looking for answers where there is only darkness, what's the point? But then again, in love, there is normally no point. A/N: This was written for all those people who have been shunned, forgotten, pushed away, but are still trying to make themselves known, still hanging onto that faint thing called hope. Persevere on~ moira out I found this in the depths of this computer in a notepad file. Seems like I wrote this a long time ago...dated 12th of may apparently... Watching gliding across the floor, she held everyone's gaze. even mine i dont need to say, that i cant win her of course she's the only one in your eyes she's never experienced this since i'm not her and she's not me but i can't bring myself to hate her she's my friend and i can't hurt her you you'll only have eyes for her i know i've lost you to her the moment you came in the first person to ask of you was her not me i can't say how much i wished, that you would look at me that i had been the one who accepted you first maybe it was right there and then that i lost you to her there's no going back that much i know i can't hate you i can't hate her she's the beauty of the dance floor i'm just a bystander if she calls to you to dance with her you would say yes of course if i did you would just say no i let out a sigh i can't forget you i don't know why you don't see i wish i had done more to make you like me i can't change who i am what i've done who you like so i'll hope and pray that someday you'll look pass that dark-haired beauty who couldn't care less and go looking through the shadows and find me who has always watched you and never said a word A/N: Actually, I think this is one of the EMO-EST poems I've ever written. I think I based it on a dream I had at that time. So weird huh... I'll publish this post and go and write another one. haha, major poetry fanatic on the rampage cya in about 20 minutes moira out Reading between the Lines When you tell me humans are weak We must be strong What you mean is stop letting your emotions dictate your actions. When you tell me, be more alert, danger is imminent What you mean is you numbskull pull yourself together. When you tell me, before I go for a mission take care What you mean is take care of whatever charge is in your hands And I'm counting on you. When you tell me, I'm sorry for your loss he was my friend too What you mean is get over it, we have no time or energy to cry. When you tell me, you love me, and that you don't want to leave What you mean is for the time being, it's useful to love you, but only for this time. Then, why should I believe you? Because, for this one time, I hope upon hope that this could be true. A/N: Hi all...This poem may be a bit convoluted but it's what i've been pondering about for a while. Why do people say one thing when they actually want to say something that's entirely different? Maybe we're too scared to think of anything else. We are sure complex beings, us humans. The poem is based on my fanfics and what they are saying so don't mind me if you think it's weird or silly or whatever... moira out whoof... my legs hurt...seriously...one aches from judo (renee throws WELL, seriously) and the other one hurts from that scrape i got during IHG captain's ball. Ouch... Well i've been writing fanfic and having fun laughing while making my characters make a fool of themselves. haha. well, if you read fanfic, and know of Final Fantasy 7 and His Dark Materials, or simply because you just can't wait to read my yucky writing, then search for Moiranne Rose at www.fanfiction.net. That's where and what I write essentially bio pt is coming along fine actually and so is lit...so i'm generally happy. wonder if it will last. anyways, i think the emoness is passing round. it's gotten rei and mel a bit and zi xin and God knows how many more of us. But we're plugging along...happy still...hopefully whoohoo wishing the raju luck in the nationals...WE WILL OWN NYGH!!! (and all the other schools) go go! wootz^^ anne.moira We are creators making new inventions revolutionizing the world painting a new canvas We are monsters killing trees burning the forests polluting a clean ocean We are angels sticking by our family and friends loyalty to the last sacrifice part of our daily life We are demons alienation due to colour discrimination due to race prejudice due to background We are kings lording over the earth dictating what lives and what dies taking what we want and throwing the remainders away We are paupers poorly lacking morality humanity toward others insufficient knowledge of our world all we can boast of We are human. A/N: fun to write this...I kinda like the subject of how human and inhuman we humans can be. Hope you guys out there liked it too! having fun like always. lit is the love and bio is icky, those mealworms were fat like they'd eaten too much breakfast...well that's another story...i'm currently looking into starting a writing blog...well, if possible, i need one of you guys to help me edit. so i think...ummm...maybe mel? but she's busy...hmmm...maybe wern...i'll go ask him...in the mean time, moira rose out |