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So she said what's the problem, baby?.what's the problem, I don't know well maybe, I'm in love love. makes me wanna turn around and face it but I don't know nothin' 'bout love, woah~ |
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Holidays. And a to do list. And some happiness. So, I was hmming and hahing to myself today... And I realised, after checking the calendar, that NEXT WEEK IS HOLS!!! omg right? I'm so blur. Anyways, next week there's training for judo on weds and fri and I need to go so I can master the throws needed for yellow belt! Wootz^^ here I come yellow belt! And also, I've got to finish 1 history w/s and 1 Lit w/s (yay lit!) and a few chapters of SNYSF and TnT to do. Work load: Low. Demand: High. As for holiday times and subsequent jumping about and merrymaking, I'm pretty much docile at the moment, wait till tomorrow. Oh yes, Ash, I made an observation that if I don't write slash/shonenai/yaoi for the fandom of FF7, no one reviews! Wonder what the world is coming to, aye? And Rei, it's not okay if you're going to bash up the girl that sits next to me. As much as I dislike her for doing what she did, don't go and try to kill her, cos she's got a deadly throw. Seriously. I've been thrown by her so many times that my tailbone hurts like xiao... I HAVE A NEW LAPTOP! ASUS EEE PC! cool huh? Yup Moira Out the get together, and the many mishaps that lead to unaccounted for poking... So as all of you should/will know, I went back to NYPS today for teacher's day. We had fun! so let me tell you what happened, and the mindless teasing along the way. Buckle your seatbelts, this will be loooong. So, we first had the celebration in school. Fun I guess (a lot better than the NYPS one I should think). I was sitting next to my twin Zi Xin, Christina and her sis Amanda H. aka. Hsiung. We'd been allocated these places (3rd level of the D block) to stand and watch, and before the show even started, due to training the day before or something, we were too tired to stand continuously. So then, we pulled out tables from the classroom behind us (401) and used them as seats. After the celebrations, I ran down to meet at the Raffles Tree while Zi Xin oh so helpfully got my bag for me (thanks dearie). Then we were frantically calling people to get down so we could move off. When we left the Foyer for the bus stop, me and Ash (a few steps from the Foyer) found out that we were illegally having our phones on. So we ran like lunatics for the bus stop and the sake of being legal. After taking bus to NYPS, we got there (sadly) after the boys, who somehow "teleported" (quote ash) there with "Kai Yan's ancient qi gong methods" (quote me). We had some introductions sessions, said hi, found Khan and Co. and ate SUSHI, while watching the p? (dunno what level) students sing some retro song we didn't really know. After that, we decided to have a movie outing to watch Wall-E! Yay us right? Nope. First we had Wern to be the admin guy, so he freaked out when only half of us were present when we were moving off. He was adament that EVERYONE had to be together before we left so me and Ben had to call and call people till everyone was extracted out of the packed staff room and en route to J8. Then on the way there, me and Samantha (chan) had some fun talking about the geniuses in Scitare. Like Su Fen for example. Then we got there, and me and Ash made some ahemremarksahem about Rei and Wern, and something oh something... I ate at Subway with Sam cos I couldn't eat (or squeeze into Mac with the boys/Samantha practicing ethical consumerism) meat today. So tuna it was. And after some cookies and such, Sam went off and we went to watch the movie. The movie was fine. Kinda funny, but disappointing actually. Wall-E was cute and all, and the message was good, but there was too much "relationships" going on for it to have much impact. After all that, we went to the Library for a bit, and (thank me Huijun), I introduced Rei to Noughts and Crosses. I was kinda bored actually, so I headed back home after calling my dear mum (mum's best!) and she picked me up. Yup that was it. And everytime I made a remark about Rei and Wern, I ducked the hailstorm of pokes which followed thereafter. I'm getting better at both skills I tell you... And SNYSF has its 15th chapter! Pro huh? hahaz Anne.Moira.Maple girl.writer.daemon This is one of the most beautiful, amazing song I've heard. Thanks goes out to Kozar, Shadow, Nax, all of you, for this song and all you've done for me and my stories. I'd give you a hug, but I'm not sure if that's appropriate... Brave The gate is wide The road is paved in moderation The crowd is kind and quick to pull you in Welcome to the middle ground You're safe and sound and Until now it's where I've been 'Cause it's been fear that ties me down to everything But it's been love, Your love, that cuts the strings So long status quo I think I just let go You make me want to be brave The way it always was Is no longer good enough You make me want to be brave Brave, brave I am small And I speak when I'm spoken to But I am willing to risk it all I say Your name Just Your name and I'm ready to jump Even ready to fall... Why did I take this vow of compromise? Why did I try to keep it all inside? So long status quo I think I just let go You make me want to be brave The way it always was Is no longer good enough You make me want to be brave Brave, brave I've never known a fire that didn't begin with a flame Every storm will start with just a drop of rain But if you believe in me That changes everything So long, I'm gone So long status quo I think I just let go You make me want to be brave I wanna be brave The way it always was Is no longer good enough You make me want to be brave Brave, brave A/N: The thing about this song is that, I can put it in any poetry, any story, any fanfiction, and any earplug or MP3, and I'd know exactly how to write it. That's the type of song I like. The type I can do anything with. Anything. To top it all off, it's a Spiritual Song, and goes right into the category of the "Favourites". Effective now. Oh yes, status report: I managed a small lunch. Scratch that, it was a plate of rice. That was oily, yucks. Gross. One day, I'll raise enough money to make RGSS get healthier food. I mean, WHAT IS THIS? We're supposed to be smart, but with all the food they're giving us, we'd be better off without any. Yes, so I had energy for judo. It was GREAT. So FUN. As in, we learnt/revised some of the most amazing throws I've ever learnt. Two "lift" throws, Two "tripping" throws, and One "reaping" throw. ho ho ho, I'm STRONG! But not as much as I'm sore. Ouch, Nicolette, I SWEAR, if you do that throw wrongly on wednesday, the reaping one, you know which one, I will KILL (nah, just maim you) you with my bare hands! My tailbone is sore like, well, really sore. haha Moira.Anne.Maple writer.girl.daemon (haha my priorities just swapped) Report of an anorexic wannabe So, as you all should know, I've been wanting to lose weight for a while now. And today (I'm so frickin proud) I skipped lunch AND recess. OMG right? SO cool! Anyways, my mum's out, so I'm quickly reporting my day at a glance. RS was boring. I burnt myself during DnT (oww, frickin glue gun) And I drew a cool picture during CLE and got Samantha dear to help me with a drawing of some cool candle thingum. And I came home in the pouring rain with cheese and jodeh! That's about it. And I posted SNYSF chapter 14 yesterday night when my mum wasn't looking! Yay me! Anne.Moira.Maple girl.writer. daemon tumtumtumtum...A To Do list In no particular order... (duh) 1) The next five questions in my math worksheet for algebra revision (mrs ang gives terribly hard problems, argh) 2) SNYSF!!! scream! no ideas no ideas! 3) Resurrections when the next chapter comes 4) Ask Ben what question he wanted to ask me, cos he's doing my head in trying to understand what exactly he'd like to know. 5) Go check up that Trucido thing by Eugene (some HPPS guy I don't really know) 6) Write more poems 7) Turks and Traitors (dang, no ideas! Haven't fully planned this... 8) Random other fanfic escapades 9) Determine the whereabouts of my editor Kozar Gabor (no huijun, he isn't my grandmother, or some guy trying to kidnap me. He's an editor from HUNGARY, sheesh) 10) Get down and reread the notes I've made for Geog and History tomorrow (SAs! Tests! AHHH!) 11) Follow Winneh's advice and go play more KOL :) 12) File Chinese (oh no file-check!) 13) Up my standards (4.0 4.0 4.0 must get 4.0) 14) Talk to a certain somebody about a certain something... (sigh I've been putting this off for a while) 15) Sleep more (I swear, 6 hours isn't good enough to pull me through 1 day till 6 30 pm. 16) LOSE SOME WEIGHT!!! (ideal: skip lunch and recess every school day and go swimming on sundays and start the dance class on fridays) phew...I think that's it.... Time We Waste By, Me? When? Umm, sometime during lunch (when I skipped it) Time we waste, Scribbling fancies Drawing utopias painting futures on glass Time we waste, dreaming dreams that don't come true making goals that we can't reach smiling smiles that never last Time we waste, thinking this will go on forever believing we are immortal ignoring the realities Time we waste, fantasising miracles a world with no blood no war, no death Time we waste trying to believe Love can cure all ailments heal all pain when it simply adds more Time we waste, under the shade of trees in each other's arms tracing paths of shooting stars Time we waste, is probably the only time we'll remember. A/N: This is basically to express why I'd probably never want myself to ever, EVER love someone. Cos its all so mortal and fragile that there's no point right? But, I guess if I ever do, you guys can all go "I told you so.". Emo-ly, Ano-ly Yours, Anne.Moira.Maple the girl.the writer.the daemon LOADS OF RANDOM THINGS and some others that seem more relevant Okay, so the thing is, I've been finding out, not so subtly, that someone, SOMEONE, that sits next to me (not you huijun dear, the other one) has been (get this) READING MY DIARY. Okay, so I know it's dumb to bring it to school, but I need somewhere to write when I'm feeling blah and the teachers get too boring (don't worry, I haven't written anything during class, too busy copying notes for certain people). Yup so there. And let's make this clear, she. is. not. my. friend. NO SHE ISN'T. I won't go to the extent to say I hate her, but I'm darn well close to it (me mum thinks its bad to say "hate"). Yup. So she's been reading my personal life that I haven't even talked about to Zi Xin. (I have a bit to Mel, Nikki, HJ, Rei and people like that though). Yes ben, stuff like who I like and things, but I'm not going to put this up on my blog right? Yep, so I'm pissed and mugging to take my mind off everything, Geog, History and Math are perfect for such things like numbing your brain. Whoo hoo. And if anyone needs something to watch, watch Freedom Writers on youtube. Beautifully touching :) And ShadowNx, if you read this, know that I have not started on the next chapter yet, but I'm getting there. And Summer, if you read this, know that I have not started on your chapter either. Sorry dear :( no time with the exams... Harshly, Sweetly Yours (taken from some fic's title) Anne.Moira HAPPINESS, PRIDE, AND A LITTLE BIT OF LAUGHTER So, today was the best day of Singapore's tiny little history. Let me tell you my story of watching it. First, I woke up this morning with this terrible knee pain, sharp kind of ache. It was bad. Real bad. Then I read in the news that the Woman's team would be taking on tumtumtumtum South Korea, so I told myself, 2 30pm must watch! Then during recess, Miss Tan (bio teacher) helpfully let the class off ten minutes before the block ended, giving us ample time to run down from the lab, grab food, and "chope" all the seats in front of the dinky little screen in the canteen, to watch Michael Phelps win his next gold medal! (2 more I think) We were screaming our heads off and Kitty started dancing after he got a World Record too. And I was pretty close to doing so myself. But the joy hadn't ended yet. I got home all sore and painful because my knee got kicked a couple of times, and I fell on it once too. After taking the bus, I grabbed a lunch (cos I ran out of money to eat in school) at home of eggs and toast. Then I read that Chinese book my mum asked me to. Then my sis came home (my mum came home slightly before then) and reminded me that there was the match on today. Needless to say, we both made a beeline for the TV and I ate another, nicer, yummier, more wholesome lunch there. Yum... Well, by that time Feng Tian Wei had won the first match and Lee Jia Wei was up next. Under pressure and then some, she lost T.T. By then, my mum had made an appointment at a TCM place to "tui da" my knee. So we left my sis at home watching and drove to the TCM place. At the place, there were these 3 ladies who were watching too. Taking time off from work (there was no one but me there), they were busy watching the doubles that came next. From what I heard while the TCM doctor massaged, we won that one too. Then when we got home, my mum rushed my sis out for some other thing. (I think it was PGA or something) Then I ran for the TV and watched as the Wang lady (sorry I kinda forgot her name) get beaten by some pro-ded Korean person. Needless to say, we were down to the last match. Feng Tian Wei went up against Park Mi Young in the battle for a page in history. The 21 year old player for Singapore had a lot on her shoulders. The first 2 matches went down 11-7 and 12-10 to Singapore, so far so good. Then it was the next match. A smashing 11-3 beating from the Korean woke us all up from our dreamy states and once more, hearts pumped madly in tandem as the next match unfolded. First Feng dominated, much to my delight. 5-0. Then Park came up with an impressive 5-4. After quite a few long and tough rallies, it was 7-7, even stevens. I screamed madly, as my dad (who had come home) settled down next to me to watch the next bit. Then the referee found out that they were way behind schedule and screamed for a shortening of the rallies. Only 13 back-and-forth hits were allowed. So Singapore strived valiantly on. Then it was 9-9. Then in a flash, one "la qiu" and a few "xiao qiu"'s and then it was 10-9 to Singapore. Then a falter by the Korean side on the service and then Feng Tian Wei had made history! I was screaming (like I was so prone to today), we had won. WE had won. we HAD won. we had WON. WE HAD WON! I had to repeat it to myself over and over just to get it in. Now I've gotta go to mass. Cya. Will pray and thank God for this miracle! Anne.Moira Teardrops on My Guitar --- The Lyrics and The Thoughts Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see That I want and I need everything that we should be I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about And she's got everything that I have to live without Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny That I can't even see anyone when he's with me He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right, I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night [Chorus:] He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe? And there he goes, so perfectly, The kind of flawless I wish I could be She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause [Repeat Chorus] So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light I'll put his picture down and maybe Get some sleep tonight He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do He's the time taken up, but there's never enough And he's all that I need to fall into.. Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see. A/N: Okay, I shall not lie that I don't feel like crying whenever I hear this song. It can be related to, sometimes, for me. I'm not telling you whose name I can replace Drew with, or who the "girl" is or whatever, because that's about the only secret i know I'll never tell. It's one of the last secrets I can claim as my own anyways. Well, I'm afraid that everyone will laugh at me. But I'm learning to think of Love as, like I said in the post below, not for me. I'm waning off the whole "liking boys" stuff and now, I'm just focused on writing writing exams mugging and writing. Yup, my life in a nutshell. Do listen to the song if you can, it's quite nice, though the singer looks like a Barbie doll :) moira out Conclusions on a Life On Religion Everyone has the right to have a religion. or not to. And it's not my place to tell them which or whether to have one. I can believe what I want, and in who I want. If it's my choice, no one should say otherwise, and vice versa. If you can't handle people who are anti your religion, then that just means you can't stick by your own. And, do things the Catholic way. Don't go around quoting the Bible, or pushing Christianity or whatever your religion is to the world. Live by example, and if people see you and want to know more, great. If they don't, then at least you're trying. On Family If I were to say my family is perfect, I guess I'd be lying. If I were to say I've never screamed/got pissed/yelled at my family behind their backs, I guess I'd be lying. If I were to say that my family is a disaster, I guess I'd be lying. But I can say that they are probably the most suitable family. I can also say that they are human, with human emotions, with human shortcomings. And family may not be by my choice or my sister's (because I doubt if we really want to be sisters sometimes...), but it is founded upon a choice (my parent's getting married). On Friends I've learnt overtime a few things: When you're a friend, it means you're willing to give time to talking and sharing with the person. When you're a good friend, it means you're willing to give time and patience, with a dash of understanding and humour to whoever the person is. When you're a best friend, it means you're willing to give time, patience, understanding, humour, and most of all, more of yourself, than you're willing to take from the relationship. And that no matter which one you are, friendship is about taking and giving, and more on giving. Because no one else, except you and the person is going to give a (pardon the use of language) damn about the relationship, so you might as well keep up your side of the whole thing. And if you want to give it up, just make sure you hold on even tighter. On Life It's true enough that sometimes, you're low and feeling stupid and ornery and just waiting for the world to hit you down again. Those are the times we want to get over with quickly. It's true enough that sometimes, you're high and feeling smart and optimistic and just waiting for the world to give you more blessings. Those are the times we want to cling onto. But, time is still the same, one minute of hell is the same as a minute in paradise, they will be the same amount of time, whether we cling or not. So, take whatever comes at you, and make sure all the happy times are spent well. Oh yes, and when you feel like you're the saddest, sorriest person in the world, think about all the other people in time who've been in situations even more dire than your own, then remember that they got over it too. And thank your lucky stars that you're safe and happy and have the luxury of access to the Internet through which you're reading my blog :) On Love Love is like alcohol. Great for the taste, but most of the time, bad for you in the long run. Quoted loosely from Checkmate, the Naughts and Crosses Trilogy: "To think that you can only love one person in your whole life is silly. There are some people lucky enough to be able to spend the rest of their lives with the one person they've ever truly loved. But they are few and far between." So don't wallow in misery if you've lost someone or something you've loved. Because you can find it in yourself, over time, to love something or someone else again. Thoughts from a Corner I crouch glad to have at least this corner to call my own while people go on arguing I don't mind that they pushed me here "reflect on your actions" yeah right I don't mind that the world hates me at least in this corner, i can shut out all of that I don't mind that outside of this haven people say not to bother about dreams at least in this corner, I can pretend I can dance again I don't mind that the world thinks I don't care about anything at least in this corner, I can still close my eyes and sleep without nightmares I don't mind that no one accepts me anymore anywhere at least in this corner, I can imagine the world is holding out its hand to pull me out from this disaster A/N: I don't exactly bother if the world hates me, cos I know the people who really matter (my parents, my sis, my besties, the baboonz) still accept me. but I'm pretty sure that others don't anymore... (notice I'm not saying who) moira out |