when all else fails

they say I'm crazy,
maybe I am.
talking to things
which don't talk back.

-perhaps too scared to-

miracles,
all a bunch of fairytales,
they tell me,
where's God, they'd like to know.

-up there laughing, probably-

coincidence,
humans are here because of it,
the sky, the world,
all one evolutionary mistake's consequence.

-or maybe someone's prized creation-

trivialities, stupidities, they proclaim,
an immature little girl's ramblings,
who'd have thought?
she seemed sensible enough.

I can hear them,
somewhere far off and away,
some days, I don't need to hear them,
and some days, I pretend I can't.

-all the things they say-

never thought myself to be this romantic,
the type to sit
and watch
and think.

searching for stars,
small mercies
amidst blackness
and lost hopes.

cold baubles hanging on
a dark Christmas tree
even though it's the city,
and no one believes in Christmas anymore.

-nothing merry about it, eh?-