when things suck, they suck.

I wish things could look up sometimes. Makes me feel happier.

I love my sister! <333 Yay! (except when she does better and makes me feel all low down and miserable).

I love my Grandmother! <333 She helped me in my Du Hou Gan that would have killed me otherwise. And she's so POWERFUL (that's it! Scream it like the three!).

Anyways.

When things suck, they suck. Big time. I can cry at the way I can hold onto rigid patterns because I can't seem to go spontaneous. Stupid stupid stupid. I keep barreling forward, so scared to see the next thing that will make me feel utterly inadequate, too afraid to find out that I'm not the best, not even in the things I want (how I want) to be good in.

Life's like a game of blackjack. You have the choice of whether to take what Life will give you, but you can't determine what is gives you.

If only I could feel satisfied. But I'm condemned to be the ever-wanting human, mortal, that I am. Stupid life. I'm pissed with you.

self-deprecation is a nicer way to say I'm being an ass.

I bet all my friends can boast of hearing some very emo, angsty, random things I can spout. I'm such a loser.