the sadness settles like fog, just won't let up.

Friends

I wish.

introductions
always wanted to feel wanted,
-she's popular, you're not-
now you are.

the start,
wave, "Hi", passes
-finding footholds firm enough-
CCA, how's OM treating you, bye.

rising rapidly,
little pieces of gossip,
-nasty? maybe-
about other girls, laughs.

middle, climax,
giggles, small comments,
-not too loud though-
trying to impress

falling down,
apart, out.
-sobs and loud voices ring-
magnetic forces die after a while.

quieten down,
apologize
-was it even my fault?-
repair it bit by bit.

laugh a little,
pretend a little
-that's what friends are for-
is it for real?

Sigh. That sucked.