disgustingly myself.

I shall resolve to hate myself.

Dear Brother,

your last letter
made me think you were here.

I've finally graduated, brother,
not a kid anymore.
too bad,
you missed the photo-taking.

gram left us last week,
cancer, you know?
I stood comforting ma that day,
my duty now, I guess.

dad and I sit alone at dinner,
mum doesn't have the heart to eat,
talking's a burden now,
so we don't.

doing the dishes,
I can still hear you,
grumbles I used to hate,
grumbles I still remember.

the bedroom's all mine now,
stretching over two beds,
I bury my head in the pillows,
searching for a long-lost memory.

I saw Jean today,
she's looking fine,
she doesn't say it,
but she misses you.

things are bleak,
gray skies,
so quiet,
I can almost hear the guns.

Stop the War in Iraq.