Crossroads

I'm standing at a crossroad
a convergence of two split roads
they'll never meet again
they'll just keep on growing further and further away

I'm making a choice,
turn left or turn right
and I'm wondering,
if all I wanted was more time

I'm wishing for the world to stand still
just give me a bit more time
a bit, just a bit
so I can stay here in limbo a bit longer

I know this will change my life
to pick between living a life with friends I've made this year
or a passion I've had for more years than I can remember,
which one?

The year will come to an end
sooner or later
and the decision will be upon me
to choose which way I'll go.

And suddenly,
all the effort I've put in,
all the friends I've made,
all the dreams I've had,
are tipping the scales this way and that.

And all of that,
seems to boil down to,
just three words,
judo or ballet?


A/N: Sorry for the emo-ing, but what rebecca said to me during judo camp really stuck. when i told her that i'd given up ballet, something i've been doing for 9 years already, just to start judo, she said, "it's a wonder what people give up for judo". I choked up then. It struck me that, i HAD given p a hell of a lot for judo, and it's not like im getting anywhere with it. i'm NOT good, contrary to popular belief. AND SO THERE! so i'm still stuck. still choosing, and the balance tips back and forth. hopefully, it will become steady when the time comes to choose
moira rose out