Thoughts on judo

All at once
you turn in
for that moment
you hoist me in the air
i hit the ground
winded

our coach reprimands me
for not putting up a fight
i can't fight much anymore
i'm too tired
too tired of failing

you
you are strong
built on success and support
me
i'm sinking
further and further down

i choke back tears
i can't cry here
lest get scolded
yet again

i get up
and ready myself
to be thrown yet again
i can't stop you
my energy and drive are gone

i gave up
ballet
singing
music
for this?

now
when it's too late
i regret it

A/N: well i think this just about sums up how i feel about judo at the moment. i'm always so tired to do anything and it's not like i'm any good...sighs...
anne out (i only use moira when i feel less tired...anne is only four letters yunno)