POEMS (whoop)
on dance (as inspired by rei)

the music drifts around me
i reach out to touch it
but it evades and moves on

the dancer
needs that music
to paint her picture
to write her story

the music stays with you
for a while
so you
dance beautifully
but only for that short time

the music leaves you
the energy fails you
the once effortless movements
are leaden and tiring

the beauty of the dance
is when
the dancer melds with her music
when she moves not to the music
but with it

that rhythm
that melody
the dancer moves across the floors
she dances not because of choreography
but because the dance that has been danced for eternity
has embedded itself within her

the dance chooses the music
the music chooses the dancer
the dancer
entrusted to carry on the dance of eternity

for me
the dance has ended
the shoes hung up
the music is but a wisp

i reach out to it
but
as if trapped in a bubble
i miss it by inches

i'm leaving it behind
everything i've put in
everything i've done
eight years
the music has left me
and i can't bring it back

AHHHHH!!!
i hate myself for giving up dance
i'll kill myself someday
i would have gone on to pointe this year
ahhhhhh
I HATE MYSELF
-anne